I decided to start blogging as I frequently get questions from friends asking me advice on everyday challenges regarding motherhood etc.
I can still remember both days on which I did my pregnancy tests. So many emotions and thoughts ran through my head as I did them. Excitement, joy, anxious and fear are only some of them. And no one can prepare you for what lies ahead. A change in hormones, cravings, nausea, cramps, insomnia, stretch marks, high blood pressure, tiredness, nesting, regular visit to the ladies room, heartburn, back pain, swollen hands and feet, acne, large breasts and I can go on like this. Some are more lucky than others. Despite of nausea/vomiting I had easy pregnancies with both my daughters, but many of my friends weren’t so lucky.
The first sonar to actually hear your baby’s heartbeat for the first time. A little black bean on the screen, soon to be your beautiful baby boy/girl. A true miracle. I have had ureteric implantation many years ago and 2 back operations, so had to be extra careful during my pregnancies. But despite of that, I could not wait to become a mother and have my own children. 9 Months go by so fast. We decided to keep the gender a surprise until the day of the birth. Today I still can’t believe that we were blessed with 2 beautiful and healthy girls. To see them wake up every morning is something I look forward to every day. It fills my heart with pride and joy every time I can steal a kiss, a hug or just get a shy smile from my 5 month old. After the birth of Emily-Thea I suffered from post-natal depression. I had a c-section so I was not that mobile after the birth. The house had to be extra clean, bottles sterilized, an extra clean kitchen, cooled and boiled water for the next day, set alarm for night feeds during the first 2 weeks and the list can go on and on. I still suffer from ocd (obsessive compulsive disorder), but it is much better by now. I could not sleep for weeks, because my brain could not switch off. I would go to bed and already plan the next day in advance. My husband didn’t know what to do to help me, but never rejected me. I cried for no reason. And you can’t explain that to anyone. No one ever said it will be easy to be a mom. Each day is a challenge on its own, but it is ok to make mistakes. That way we learn and others can learn from us.
My blog posts will cover a diverse of topics. Maybe you can relate to what I say, or you can add to what I say. The most beautiful thing about being a mom is that you only want the best for your family and will do whatever it takes to protect them.
“Happiness is when you realize your kids are turning out to be really good people.”